My stubborn mind says run

I was an arrogant man. I was vain and proud. I came to you, this place, bearing the gift of my conceited self, boasting of intellect and toting smart questions. And so occupied, I judged and ridiculed and compared. My presumptions were filthy and unjust. My curiosity was not wise curiosity, but a statement by a closed mind seeking security in its past limited beliefs.

With this I struggled.

And today the decision was made to drop my stubborn will. A heavy burden fell away. I did not die with its loss. We can carry the old things only so far, and letting them go, all becomes light and weightless and joyfully we step ahead carefree for now there is nothing left to lose. Those things we thought so important! Those beliefs, which had gone stale sitting too long in the cupboard with only the plank boards as company; that vain glory that tastes of mold and makes the forehead knot and ache–now it is the warmth of new bread dough in the ovens and all is flour dust catching the first light as morning arises outside the baker’s kitchen and the sidewalks are quiet and dew-coated. The brilliance of an open mind smells of yeast and cinnamon, sounds of tinkling glass and feels like the first stretch at dawn when the whole world is asleep and you see it first.

The brilliance of an open mind smells of yeast and cinnamon, sounds of tinkling glass and feels like the first stretch at dawn when the whole world is asleep and you see it first. tweet

There is no greater freedom than the freedom from a tired self! So fight over your old flags and beg patriotism while I write a new Declaration of Independence, began with flourishing strokes and left after a few hasty opening lines because there’s no time waiting for the ink to dry as my aspirations are now for quick discovery and adventurous exploration with only a knapsack to carry. Damn it feels good to stroll into god knows where! Let the dogs fight over old bones. Let mother wave her farewells. Let the bells ring at my back. For I have heart and a future ahead.

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